keeeeeeezy

It takes one second to realize how quickly you could lose the world, and that pain is almost too much to handle sometimes. It makes you just stop and take the time to understand how everything got down to that one second left. I have everything in the world to be happy, I’m just not accepting it the right way or using it the way I should be. And its hurting me and its hurting other people I really care about. I wish it wasn’t so badly, I want to take everything back and change it but I know how impossible that is. I don’t know where this all began but I want to figure out whats going on. It’s tearing me apart. I’d give anything that I am able to, to see that sparkle in your eyes when we first fell in love. I can’t be without you and I know I have to start over bc the past few weeks have been the hardest. There is no reason for any of this, we are happy together and we are so in love. It’s silly things that have frustrated us. I’ve been so stupid and selfish, and I don’t even know what’s gotten into me to act this way but I need to make a change. And I can’t let it wait, because I’m going to lose the most important person in my life if I eff up again.

I love you.

I’m so sorry.

I need you.

It’s all my fault.

i up at westchesta and its raining, raining, raining really hard. i’m waiting for babe to come back from work randomly stalking tumblr. it’s raining so much, its legit white outside. i love looking at pictures on lookbook :) kaybyeeee i love you